I Have To Believe...

I have to believe, God, that you are who you claim to be. I have to believe that the book that you breathed into life through the guidence of the holy spirit, is just that. Your breathe of life. Father, I have to believe that you are bigger than anything that is in me, and that you truly desire for me to know your love. I have to believe that you want me to hear you call me daughter. I have to believe that you are right beside me, however painfully unaware I am. I have to believe that you are the same God now as you were in the garden, when you exiled your beloved ones. You had mercy on them. I have to believe that you are the same God for me that you were for David. He failed over and over again, but you ran to him at the outpouring of his heart, even in taking another man's wife. I have to believe that you are the same God now as you were when you told Abraham to take his son't life and give it to you, and still the same God that held back Abraham's hand when Issac was only moments from certain death. Despite my doubt, I have to believe that you are the same God who walked the earth and for a short time made yourself known as Messiah. You healed, you rebuked, you cast out evil, and you loved. I have to believe that you are the same God who brought his son to earth to pay my price. Truly, the same God who died there on the cross for me. I have to believe this and so much more, because if I don't than I am believing a lie. If I don't believe that your Word is truth, than I cannot believe that you are bigger than me. Indeed I can't believe that you are big enough to see me through anything, if you are a god who lies. I believe that you are an honest God, and that you would not lead your children astray. I have to believe that you are who you say you are, because if you are not, then all hope is lost. God, please forgive me for asking, but please come and make it known to me that you are the same God for me as you were for David, Abraham, Issac and the twelve. Make yourself evident to me.