In a sense, it's like vacation is over and it's now time to focus on more important things in life. I think that recently I've remembered the importance of living for others.
I seem to have vague memories of a time in my life when I did that, but I think I've regressed. I find myself asking the same questions of myself:
"What does a life lived for others look like?"
"How am I not already doing that?"
"What areas do I need to change to live a life that abandons self preservation in favor of others?"
I guess there are two more questions that are more important: First I need to ask "How am I a poor representation of Jesus?" and second I need to take a good, hard, deep, look and ask "Are you willing to hear the answers?" Maybe the second needs to come first...
Jesus, my desire is for you! I know that it means certain death to ask you to come and make me dependent on you, but if death is what it takes, kill every last fiber of me. Make me a woman who is able to say with confidence, "though you slay me, Lord, Still I will follow you."
may by ability no longer be enough to get by on. I need the Holy Spirit and the power of the living God to be my strength. I need you...
Let it be.
