He Beckons

In the midst of moving I've lost my bible. It sure is a hell of a time to lose something so redolent with life and encouragement. Life has been pretty calm since January... Up until 3 weeks ago, that is. I can't wait for everyone to come back to school and see it. Hopefully we'll be ready to open shop as scheduled (August 18th if you were wondering)
I can't quite figure out what God's going to do in this next season. Right now I just want to cry. It's kinda comical, actually. I Have been surprisingly emotionless the past three weeks, but tonight I began to get a little weepy. I came home and I felt absolutely spent. It's a little overwhelming being partially responsible for opening a business, let alone opening it in a month.. that's right... one month.
If nothing else, there are a few things I am beginning to see, both in God and in myself. I am constantly being reminded of how He is the one who made all of this happen. It's a complete miracle that we were even asked to take over the coffee shop in the first place! God is reminding me of things that he spoke to me and things that I prayed for years ago. I would venture to say that he is beginning to bring some of those things to fruition. AMEN!!
He's also showing me some of my junk (as usual) I'm a little overwhelmed and I haven't been the nicest person this week. I think in celebration of my crappy attitude I was given a slice of humble pie... I also have this little habit of muscling through difficulties without even thinking about asking God for strength. DUMB!! Don't do it... It's stupid and not nearly as productive. But he's a good Papa and he's always waiting for me to grab hold of his hand again, no matter how undeserving I am.
I can see how everything in my life, especially events over the past 5 years, has led up to this season. He is so gracious to give us the desires of our hearts if we first choose to give ourselves completely to Him. I am completely humbled by the amazing saviour we serve and even more humbled by my incompetence. Yet, He adores me.
If you're in the area, come see the shop. If you live in Redding, I'm sure we can find college students for you to feed. If you really want to win them over, tell them to bring their laundry too.
Really what I think it comes down to is this: "But God demonstrates his love for us by the fact that the Messiah died for us while we were still sinners." (Romans 5:8) What choice does that leave us?