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It's been a month.
A very full month.
I finally unpacked and cleaned my room a week and a half ago, and slowly life is leveling out to something more manageable and surprisingly, enjoyable.
So enjoyable, in fact, that I feel like I'm in uncharted waters and that just around the corner lies a revelation of some deep healing or refining work that God wants to do.
As much as I love this place I'm slightly uncomfortable.
I've grown used to hard times of pressing through. I've grown familiar with having my eyes opened, over and over again, to the wretchedness that lies in the depths of my heart.
I've seen my brokenness and experienced the healing touch of a father who desires to forever set me free...
He has set me free from so much.
And now things are enjoyable. Exhilarating even!!
and I feel like I have to learn all over again how to live.
For the first time God is saying things to me like "Whatever you want to do" and "Either way, I know you'll choose well"
We laugh.
I choose,
And he is pleased.
Freedom seemed to cost me so much, but I look back and see that I had nothing to lose and everything to gain.